Outfits Post (And Some Rambling) : There's a Conclusion To My Illusion3:25 PM
Hello Fellas, finally I write a post again.
I just realize that I lost a lot of my posts! I mean, my old post. Geez!! I like "wait, where's my post on Bali, where's this and where's that?". So I decided to post it again here. I hope you don't mind.
Sleeveless Top : Unbranded
Sunnies : Unbranded
Bangles : Bali
Well, actually I want to do some randomly rambling here. I mean, I want to share some stories to you, guys. Lately I was despised by my close friends. I can't actually call them "close friends" anymore since they did something that I can't understand. At first I felt that there's something different with their behavior and I just like "that's only your imagine, G".
But, as time goes by, they don't want to talk with me anymore. I asked them "What's my fault? Is there any mistake that I have done?" and they answered like "If you don't know what's your fault, then we don't need to talk". I just like "WHAT?"
I got depressed and sick for several days (maybe till now). I told my problem to my mom, my other friend who truly care about me, someone who never cease to love, and of course, my God. They asked my to stop thinking about it, but I can't. I don't know what's my fault and that turns like a shit!
I cried almost everyday and my health goes worst. I lost my weight and I got a bad hair loss. REALLY BAD. When I comb my hair with my hand, then I can got a lot of hair loss.
I pray to God a lot and start to spent my time with other friends. Trying to open my mind and get a new point of view. I learn to introspect myself and accept my condition. But I have to admit that live with my "friends" in one place, in my boarding house made me so frustrated.
My wise friend said "face them, ask them what's your fault, if they don't say it, just tell them that you feel sorry".
She said this is my natural selection, but it doesn't mean that I could not adapt. This is simply because "friends who hates me" is not a suitable habitat for me. Maybe I already had a different perspective with them. Maybe I've changed, maybe I've been through a stages where they are still remain in that stage. And maybe when I changed, I was no longer a suitable person to be in their group. Maybe I'm wrong because I can not adapt to them anymore. But my wise friend said that I'm lucky because I know what kind of friends they are.
She said "If you strong enough, face them everyday like there is nothing wrong between you and them, but if you think you're enough, move, you're not a tree"