Lookbook (And Some Rambling) : There's a Conclusion To My Illusion

3:25 PM

Hello Fellas, finally I write a post again.
I just realize that I lost a lot of my posts! I mean, my old post. Geez!! I like "wait, where's my post on Bali, where's this and where's that?". So I decided to post it again here. I hope you don't mind.

Sleeveless Top : Unbranded
Sunnies : Unbranded
Bangles : Bali

Well, actually I want to do some randomly rambling here. I mean, I want to share some stories to you, guys. Lately I was despised by my close friends. I can't actually call them "close friends" anymore since they did something that I can't understand. At first I felt that there's something different with their behavior and I just like "that's only your imagine, G".

But, as time goes by, they don't want to talk with me anymore. I asked them "What's my fault? Is there any mistake that I have done?" and they answered like "If you don't know what's your fault, then we don't need to talk".  I just like "WHAT?"

I got depressed and sick for several days (maybe till now). I told my problem to my mom, my other friend who truly care about me, someone who never cease to love, and of course, my God. They asked my to stop thinking about it, but I can't. I don't know what's my fault and that turns like a shit!
I cried almost everyday and my health goes worst. I lost my weight and I got a bad hair loss. REALLY BAD. When I comb my hair with my hand, then I can got a lot of hair loss.  

I pray to God a lot and start to spent my time with other friends. Trying to open my mind and get a new point of view. I learn to introspect myself and accept my condition. But I have to admit that live with my "friends" in one place, in my boarding house made me so frustrated. 

My wise friend said "face them, ask them what's your fault, if they don't say it, just tell them that you feel sorry".  

She said this is my natural selection, but it doesn't mean that I could not adapt. This is simply because "friends who hates me" is not a suitable habitat for me. Maybe I already had a different perspective with them. Maybe I've changed, maybe I've been through a stages where they are still remain in that stage. And maybe when I changed, I was no longer a suitable person to be in their group. Maybe I'm wrong because I can not adapt to them anymore. But my wise friend said that I'm lucky because I know what kind of friends they are.

She said "If you strong enough, face them everyday like there is nothing wrong between you and them, but if you think you're enough, move, you're not a tree"

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11 message(s) in the bottle ❤

  1. True friends will not be angry at you for no reason. If you did anything wrong, they should tell you and not just leave you hanging until you get depressed and sick. Be strong and learn from your mistakes and be better. :)


  2. following you now on GFC. thanks for following. lucky you. its is 3 degrees in the south of england right now.

    have a lovely day and keep in touch


  3. nice Quote! so happy that u have wise friend :) btw, sevral days ago i've lost my close friend also. XD

  4. people like that are not your true friends, dear. it's so super childish to be angry and not say why you're angry. I don't understand why someone should do it to others anyway. very mean, I must say. but don't let stuff like that get under your skin, be with true friends and don't blame yourself. take care!

    Maikeni blogi - part of me

  5. That beach looks great, and you seem so relaxed. I'm a bit jealous!

    I'm following now, I would be more than happy to see you on my list as well!

    Style Nirvana

  6. Thank you for visiting my blog a while back. Happy Valentine's Day to you. I'm not too sure what happened between you and your so called "friends" but I feel that as mature adults, they should be talking things out instead of saying that there isn't anything to talk about since you do not know what's your fault. I hope things would come to light soon and that you would be able to handle everything in your stride.

  7. Great outfit!

    Would you like to follow each other with GFC and Bloglovin '? Let me know :)

    Have a good week!

  8. Looking lovely girl! Would you like to follow each other? Please let me know if you're interested. Latest post on my blog is OOTD: Blue & Black

    Louisa Moje

  9. This is such a nice setting, not like the UK where it is raining all the time.

    Love the pictures.



  10. Lovely dress :D



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