My Life Story : My Breast Story5:22 PM
Heiyoo readeeeeeers, OMG, I am missing you so much guys !!
Sorry for my long hiatus, I got a lot of schedule for shooting, you know, something like that *slapped* LOL
No,, I was not good for couple weeks ago, I was so stressed. It's not about my theses anyway (actually, yeah, it's about my thesis too, I wasn't did it for two weeks, even for touch it. Aaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!). Well, actually, I am sick. About three weeks ago, I found that my chest and breast felt so painful. I thought that happened because I was stressed bout my thesis. But the pain was not gone after one week. I was afraid and decided to check up and did some USG. Honestly, I was so surprised after knowing the result, but I am not afraid at that time. Even I can't feel my pain at that time.
Well, I got 4 lumps (3 benign tumors fibroadenoma -1,3cm-7mili-5mili-, and one cysts) in my right breast and one lump (benign tumor fibroadenoma -1,2cm-) in my left breast. Not big, and not dangerous. I can do some surgery if I want but doctor say it's okay if I don't do it. Anyway, these my USG picture.
Sometimes I stared at them (now, I store them. I don't want to see it anymore) and thought that was a baby. It must be so much better if I saw any babies picture inside that USG result. But Unfortunately it's not. Well yeah, I felt okay at that time. But everything turned so worst when I went home. My family was panic, even my boyfriend too. I feel so depresses. They talk about it too much and I became so afraid. I got stressed and lost my weight until 4 kilograms. Sound bad eh?? I become so thin and ugly. Yes, I say ugly. I found a very big dark circle around my eyes, I lost my chubby cheek, and my sexy body *slapped* (That's why I don't do any blogging thingy because I don't want to show you my weak ugly body to you all) I was so stressed and depressed (but I am getting better now). I know they worried about me, but that was not helped me at all. They tried to looked for some alternative medicine for me. I love drink them, I love that medicine, because I want to be health anymore, but my family reaction made me feel so depressed. So the medicine doesn't work at that time IMO. Because I am not cheerful and not sure about that herbal life thingy.
I feel my face goes so worst. My body feel not good and that made me don't want to do anything. That worse. The worst part in my life ever !! So I decide to go back at my boardinghouse. Talk about something fun with my friend. They supported me and I feel so strong and feel better. I even told this thing to my lecturer, and she feel sorry about this, But she support me as well, so I become so strong day by day. I did my make up again, and keep my healthy. I also tell about this to my lil sister, Caroline. The only one of IBB's member who know about my problem (now, I tell all of you, ladies :*). She support me and calm me. I felt so blessed and happy for having friend like her too, so I get my spirit again. Now, I gain my weight again and keep drinking the herbal medicine. I also checked my breast after I got my period. Now, I feel happy and feels health (think positive will help my healing process). I also pray to Allah everyday.
This is me now xDD~~
So, I beg on you my dearest sisters, pleaseeee, check your breast and your body. Feel it, something weird in your body, then check it to the doctor. Do some preventive thing will help you so much. You know, being beautiful is being health too. I love you guys :*