My Life Story : Dreamcatcher (and Giveaway Winner)1:19 PM
"Dear GOD, I trust You.."
"If you have a dream, run. Chase it. If it's too high, jump. Reach it. If it's too far away, fly. Catch it. Then make it comes true. God never sleeps" -Gita Regina-
It's nice to write again on this blog.
This time I'm not going to talk about beauty or fashion. I want to tell you about a lot of things. About what I've been thinking these times.
My dream is to become a designer. My all friends know how I love to design. The colors, the patterns, the styles, art, and the beauty of love which poured on a piece of cloth. It makes me really happy. You know, it gives me some euphoria when I did it. I can't lie if I enjoy it much.
Time by time I realize that I found what I love next. I got Public Relation class when I was in second semester, and it has a rule that I have to wear some make up on my face. You know, act like a professional. Well dressed then put some make up on my face really help me to make my day. I loved how make up work wonders on the face of each person who is touched by. It just like give me a new spirit.
And I realized that I found the similarities of these two things.
Color, style, drawing, and passion.
I recognizes that I live amongst it from I was a child. I know how I love art. Art that I mean here is not just a contemporary art or classic art that lives in the blood of artists. Art that I call here is how science, culture , behavior , and age , forming my mindset . Oh, if you knew how much I wanted to have my own label. How do I want my hallmark in face painting will recognize.
And one more thing, I wanna go to school again.
Getting a master's degree.
Oh my God,, I do really love go to school, and study. Learn everything.
I know. Build what I dreamed was not as easy as building a house of Lego. My parents might want me to work in well-known companies, with salaries above the average. Yes, it is humane. But everything has to be run with the will, passion , effort , and prayer, hasn’t it? Without one of those things, everything won’t go smoothly.
Do not believe ? Let's tell a story.
I've worked as a marketing in a small company . FYI . I never liked marketing. I feel , my sales art is bad. I got good tips to increase sales , but not in practice . In short, I suck .
After that company , I continued my work with being a public relations at a wedding organizer . Well, at first I felt " this is my place" but not thereafter . There's nothing wrong with my work . I enjoyed it, but there was no passion in it . It's like things which make you go to school after a long holiday . Every day . Hmm , how does it sound ? Hard .
I've prayed to God , trying to do their best as well , but I realize . Again . There is no passion . It makes me heavy in stride . Erm, like what I do is always wrong. But , I know . There is nothing that can be obtained easily in this world . Maybe God put me in this situation so that I can learn how I should choose a job . Or maybe God told me how hard to earn money , how hard to save , how hard to survive so that I could realize my dream , maybe God was taught me to survive in the midst of a situation that did not support me .
This situation make me depressed. You know? Like someone who doesn't know the direction and don't have any purpose. It made me become more sensitive, make me feel that people around me are hating me and it makes me feel uncomfortable. I cry, a lot. In a situation like this, seeing other people with their dream come true made me even frustrated. Envy. Darn! It makes me look like a person who is less grateful.
And this situation also took me in a state where I really hate someone, one person. I never felt this on someone. But she is different. I do not know, but from the beginning I saw her, really, I had no sympathy, whatsoever. She's racist (for people who arguably smart, she does not have any moral. For who studied social sciences, she never had a social sense and empathy. Even I doubt that she studied in social and political science faculty), in other hand, she ever favored by people I love who cannot love me for six years, and last, she can get what she wants. Period. I hate her. So much. Seriously, I've never been like this. But yeah. She did it. Perfectly. And I hate her perfectly.
Oh my God, please forgive me,,
I know, maybe I have not been able to reach my dreams now. Maybe I still have to cry every night, pour out my heart to someone who will never cease to love. Or maybe I still have to keep asking for help from God. But I know, this is one way of God for me to achieve my dreams.
Maybe I have to jump higher to reach my dreams . Or maybe I have to fly to reach my dreams . And make it come true. Yes, I have to make those possibility into certainty...Amiin.
Again, what's your dream? :)
P.S : My Giveaway Winner is Jessica Ie :D
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Anyway, what's your dream, J? :)