Hi mates, it's been a year since I write on this blog. I know that I am a lazy blogger. Bad blogger for sure. I do really want to share my beauty reviews and my daily look which still on process. Well yeah, I have to do so many post. Geez.
But now, instead of talking about beauty and daily look, I want to talk about life. Well, I am almost 24. For my age, I am surely want to get married. And time is running out. But for your information, I broke up with my boyfriend. No wonder, my best friend and other people who know us well were shocked. And I was like "hhmm, hhh" You know, that shitty awkward feeling when those people keep asking you "WHY?"
A friend of mine has a joke about my relationship, he said "It's been 5 years, and you have to change your license plate" and I could've died laughing. Honestly, I have so many plans with my ex, but when it doesn't work, I feel like, this is not right. And yes, the problem is me. It might sound cliche if I showed you why I decided to break up with my boyfriend. I do not love him anymore. And imagine if I lived with him for the rest of my life? Well, I believe, love is just a chemical reaction from pheromones, endorphins, and serotonin. And the substances will be reduced even disappear after several time. But trust, empathy, compassion, and communication will remain binding. For us, some of it may have disappeared. Then suddenly, I can't find our right time, anymore. Moreover, to continue our life in a marriage, but I am living in belief that I would get married, someday, with the right person (for me). Having children, many plans for future, and a happy life. But is that true? Only that?
Today I found this link
and feel like, yes, not all of which are considered by others is good for us is good for us. Everyone says my ex is a good person. I have no doubt, he is a good man. Everybody says he is good for me, but is it true? Again, I realize that the one who knows what we need better, is our self.
So, “how do we know that this is the perfect time to get married”
Let's make everything look easy, let's say we were strolling at the mall, then we hear a song that we have not heard before, and suddenly the song kept ringing in our ears. Make us fall in the rhythm, even till another song played. As it turned out, that's how the taste; met with someone who we do not know before, but then make us say to ourselves, "this is just right". Suddenly, we've fallen in love and enjoy it without realizing at the 'tone' where he made it all started to feel right. Then we suddenly felt SURE could stay with our mates until the last 'tone' released into the air, that's when we find the right moment to make the only decision that should not be broken by human will. When we are willing to pass it all together, until the end of the story. Until the end of the age.
And, yes, I already found my song,,